Welcome!

Welcome to my blog and thank you SO much for your support! In this first post I will be explaining my reason for starting this blog as a sort of weight loss blog. Really - it's a Bettering Myself Blog.

For one - let me introduce myself. I go by Luna, at least online on some site and on this blog. No, it is not my real name. I don't have any problem disclosing my real name, but I am using an alias for a reason that many would not understand, I don't want my family reading this blog or knowing about it. I know, usually people do blogs for their friends and families, but I feel if they read my blog they would constantly be looking at my waist line or what I was shoveling into my mouth. I like the anonymity that I can have with an alias. Sure - maybe it's a little too Julie and Julia for some people, but I thought it would be fun. I doubt anyone will read it, but I can pretend I have some people rooting for me (and if you do read - I would LOVE comments of any sort).

Anyway, I am a 20 year old music major in the glorious state of Idaho. I am a performance major - which means I have to practice multiple times a day. Add on hours of music classes, I don't have much time for exercise or cooking. I do not in any way consider myself 'fat'. I would definitely call myself 'less than perfect/ideal', but I really do not have a problem with the way I look. I feel I am proportionate to my big boned structure (thanks genes), though I do have a slight tummy and thighs that are just too chubby for my liking. I am doing this not for a better body image (though I wouldn't complain if I gained one) - but rather for a better well-being and way of life.

The inspiration for this blog - and this journey- comes from my addiction to Self Magazine (self.com). They had this awesome article on reaching New Years Resolutions. Though I'm not making this my resolution (I really don't do resolutions, I feel less likely to quit if I make it feel long-term), I was inspired by that article to go gung-ho. I won't be following their 'guidelines' directly, and I probably won't eat healthy or exercise EVERY day. This is just an attempt to improve myself.

Just for the record: I will not being using a scale to weigh myself every day for my poundage. There are a few reasons for this. One - I do not own a scale... and I don't want to own one. They are intimidating and just make me feel crappy about myself. Two - Weight is a persnickety thing. Muscle weighs twice as much as fat - or so I've been told - and I don't want to get upset if I go up rather than down in weigh because of this. Three- I don't want to set 'goals', especially with life being so unpredictable. It's about how I feel about myself. I know how I want to look - not how much I will weigh when I look that way. I'd love to go down a few dress sizes (I currently falter between a 16/18 - leaning towards the 18 size) or finally be able to shop at a not plus-sized store with ease, but that may never be possible with my big-boned state

Reasons this is easier for me than it ever has been before: I was depressed a lot in high school. I hated everyone in my school and couldn't stand the immaturity of my peers. Besides - I had to take math and English and stuff, I couldn't focus on my true love - music. College gave me a chance to change that - and myself. I have never been happier than I am now - living alone in a single bedroom apartment (I don't mind if I get married - but I simply cannot live with messy and inconsiderate roommates). I am actually kinda sorta dating a guy (OK we haven't held hands yet, but we've been dating for over a month - which is HUGE for a Virgin Lip Club member like myself). I am improving every other aspect of my life - it's time to start this too!