Depression Sucks

Discovery:  You know how when someone is crying, and then someone hugs them, they start crying harder?  That extra burst of tears is gratitude for knowing someone cares.

No one should be allowed to cry from depression in the middle of a group of 'friends' and have no one notice or care....  This happened to me tonight.

Studio Success and Salad.... Cravings?

Do you know how great life is?  Life is absolutely fabulous!  I get to seen Johnny 4 times a week - Church, FHE, and the 2 days we have religion class together :D!  You better believe it!  But yeah - and I am being great!  I am now organized - reading all my required readings in class - studying - making flash cards - typing up notes - and practicing daily!  You better believe it! 

So yesterday I had to play in studio class.  I was a little nervous but not too nervous especially because I had just played for my professor who talked about how great my tone was and how she could really tell I practiced!  YEAH DAWG!  So then the scary professor who very well hate me had the first comment at the end and guess what she said!  '*Luna*, this was your strongest performance thusfar' YOU BETTAH BELIEVE IT (I almost didn't!)  I've never been so proud!  I'm going to kick booty at GRH next.

So you could not believe how much I have been craving salad lately!  The reason?  A DELICIOUS blend of Dole Mediterrainian Blend Salad and Light Raspberry Walnut Vinaigrette!  NO JOKE!  I've been having a salad almost nightly - an unknown occurrance for this house!  Try it, it's delicious - and low fat!  Also, I've begun shopping at the local Food Co-Op.  I buy my milk there (cheap and organic), veggies, bulk anything, bulk spices, it's amazing!  If you have a Co-Op locally, get your fruits, veggies, and other goods there and support your local farmers!  It's delicious, fresh, organic, healthy, and basically YES!

Another thing I'm doing to avoid eating out is preplanning my meals for the week and the next week.  Then I can know what ingrediants I need and I know what dishes I need and there's no more 'oh I don't know what to eat' and then when I finally decide I don't have the ingrediants, time, or patience to make it.  Yeah - this definitely solves that.  I also shop at a local grocery store - cheaper and fresher - for the foods I can't get at the Co-Op.  I don't totally have time to work out all the time, but I think I'm making major improvements!

Shake it!

I can hardly believe what happened last night! I went clubbing (it was an 18+ club all you nit pickers, so no lawbreaking), and I was COMPLETELY comfortable!  I wore something I felt great in, had some not-so-healthy bar food dinner, paid my door fee, and had the time of my life!  I have never felt so comfortable!  A girl I work with (who totally hates me) was there 'chillin' and I didn't even care that she was watching me and judging me while I was on the dance floor.  Not to mention I worked off all those calories I ate from sweating and dancing my ass off!  I had so much fun! I was dancing, shaking it, and I actually danced in a way that I never danced before!  I did the whole 'sexy' thing and hell, I had my ass on another girls crotch and didn't feel self concious!  This is SO crazy for me - but I LOVED it!

This morning I woke up, looked at my profile in the mirror, and was like DAMN!  Check me out!  I don't think I've had real crazy physical change, but I had a change of mind.  This will definitely become a more common occurance!

The murderer called school

I'm beginning to find keeping up on posting - and being good - is becoming more difficult as school goes on.  However - I have been cooking at home more - which is a big plus - and I've been packing lunch in my bento box.  My goal is packed lunch Monday, Wednesday, and Friday - and 'naughty days' on Tuesday and Thursday.  I haven't had much of a chance to work out because of all the homework and studying I've done after class - but hopefully after I get settled in it will be better.  Really - all my days have been is class and studying, but I have been doing great at being more organized and better studying!  Well I have to go write up some biology flash cards - but thanks for your help!

New Idea

OK so posting the morning of the day AFTER is DEFINITELY going to work better.  So far, school is awesome!  I love it so much!  And the only class I was dreading - my 3 hour biology night class - one of my BEST friends from the music program is in it, and so it goes much faster!  Not to mention the professor ROCKS and it was only 2 hours long last night!  Indeed - I am excited.  The only downside is waking up while still tired - but I'm sure I can fix that eventually.  I need to do laundry - which is another bettering myself goal - do it before it needs to be done!  Haha! 

The Bento Box idea was GREAT!  I just took a 'summer sausage' and cheese for my 'main dish' (I know - lots of sodium - but low calories), and pretzels (the recommended amount) and veggies with dip! YUM!  I even rode my bike to class in the near or below freezing temperatures - and loved it!  PLUS I'm keeping up with my practicing - and actually doing the reading for my classes!  It's going to be a good year - already starting out well!  I'm just trying to get into a good routine now - and hoping I see results!

Quick Catch Up

Sorry I didn't post yesterday I was busy with church and seeg Johnny.  Just a quick check up - I'm still alive.  today's my first day of school (SO excited! my first class is Billiards) so expect more missed days!  My lunch is packed and ready!  I'll see ya'll later!

Its not tomorrow yet!

So since it's not yet midnight I am still posting TODAY!  Haha!  Today's been sorta not productive.  Met my mom 1/2 way between our towns for lunch at a diner.  I rested and got ready for school and cleaned house somemore.  Had a pep band game today.  Our ladies won.   Oh yeah - you better believe it!  Then I went to a local brewery to hear my good friend's band, Somewhere in the Middle.  They SO rock!  And now - I'm about to pass out!  G'night!